Some have writers block and some people are stuck creatively at times. When I’m in one of my ruts, it feels worse than both combined. It’s not just writing my articles or coming up with photo shoot ideas. I describe it is an overall uninspired feeling and having a lack of motivation. It feels dark. My first year as a freelancer the feeling would come around often. The feeling of nothingness devastated me every time it occurred.
My desperate need for perfectionism began to hinder me in a big way. I thought I wasn’t human and that I couldn’t (and shouldn’t) take breaks. After all, my life depended on me working, literally. I didn’t know what self care was and ignored tending to myself. I put constant pressure on myself to put out content. Work and being an artist was put first and being a human second.